You know... I just want her to read this all and re-evaluate any thoughts she's having. I want her to see the struggle, anguish, anger, depression, and frustration of it all. It's not fun. For me, this blog is an out from my reality to reflect, connect, and turn back to when I'm having a rough time (which is a lot... unfortunately). This isn't a life I would choose for anyone close to me. Or anyone in general, for that matter.
Should I do it? Or should I still keep it hidden from plain view for a while? I'm not sure. I'm torn because I don't tell anyone here about it. I keep it hidden for a reason. I don't want to raise concern for me; I'm not looking for a pity party. I'm afraid she would judge me for it if she ever saw it. But on the other hand, I feel like maybe... just maybe... if she read through it all, that she would see how awful and senseless it is to pick a lifestyle so hideous.
I'm not sure what I should do. Thoughts? What would you do if it was your best friend since birth who was struggling and might need help?
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