Thursdays Are Good Days...

...because I don't have to go to campus!

I successfully told my boyfriend that I wasn't going to campus with him today, and all he said was, "pass your test tomorrow." Oh well. At least he looked absolutely adorable this morning when he walked out the door. He has some wicked cool job meeting thing today or whatever, so he had to dress up. Let me tell you, he looks pretty good when he cleans up. :-)

Saying that makes me feel really bipolar because I was just upset with him last night because he called me fat. Some girl also texted him a picture and was like, "I'm all hot and bothered tonight. What should I do? Try on outfits?" and I about fucking shit a brick. Especially because he always tells me that she acts so desperate and dumb, and that she's a really awful bowler with no manners. Hahaha. I'm not sure what to do, but I'm pretty sure I'm saying something about in front of her dad this weekend, since I have to fucking bowl league with her. I'm not thrilled about it, let's just say that.

Anyway, I have a feeling today will be a lovely day (sarcasm). I ran out of cigarettes, and there is almost no food in the house because no-one has shopped in so long, but I think I'll be okay. I have my glass of lemon water to suffice for now, and I'll probably make some sleepy tea later to try and sleep some of the day away. Either way, it's only about 8:00 am right now, so I'll probably zonk out after I write this anyway.

It kind of sucks having to take all of this day by day. Sometimes I wake up and I just feel like I can get shit done, and then there are days I just want to curl up and die. Today might be one of those days. I think it's too early to really think about it. I would tell you what I'm thinking about eating today, but I really can't even think of anything I could eat that isn't processed or frozen (that's my boyfriend's fault). We have no fresh food left. We have no broth left. No veggies. It'll be a challenge if I end up eating later on. I'll have to let you know how that goes...

Anyway, last night my boyfriend wanted to go out for dinner. So we did. Boyfriend gets what he wants. But anyway, we ended up at this Mexican restaurant that we used to frequent. I got something that is about half the size of the meal I used to get. Thankfully, this wasn't a whole meal. I ate part of it and then boxed the rest. My boyfriend commented on my eating habits during our time there though. I guess he knew that I've lost weight since school started, and he told me it was because I wasn't eating enough. I didn't really have time to think about the rebuttal, but I basically just told him that I didn't have time to eat some of the time and I've been feeling sick a lot. Plus, that's kind of true because something's been up with my system as of late and I swear I haven't been taking lax. But I'm not gonna complain. It's just a little more water weight gone. The ugly part is that I'm also getting killer headaches and stomach aches, and I'm getting dizzy spells if I move too fast or concentrate on something for too long.

It's kind of annoying.